Break Up

Luckily, this happened to me only once. Yet, it’s a rather doubtful experience to overcome. I was seeing a man. Once, I went to the bathroom to wash my hands. A dyed black hair was on the sink (Not family related hair!). I became paralyzed. Then, I looked at the floor next to the sink. There were the same hair as if someone was brushing. I didn’t have any questions in my head like, who’s, why, how. I was totally paralyzed, I couldn’t move, I didn’t want to move. I wanted to vanish. It was like watching a drama movie.

My brain immediately gave me the answer to the accident. I just couldn’t believe. I didn’t want to believe. He couldn’t do that. He is not like that.

Finally, I left the bathroom and asked wtf. The answer was amazing – it’s your hair. Clearly, it was NOT. After some time, there was another explanation, lame one, fake one. And more hair to be found.

With all the information on the surface, I was still in denial for some time. I refused to acknowledge.

Shortly after, it was over.

I am happy I did not blame myself. I didn’t wonder what is wrong with me. I know the answer – nothing! If someone else has issues, it is not my problem. Just, I don’t want to get involved into any dirt.

This sh@ty story made value myself, take care of myself, listen to myself, prioritize myself over anything else. The lesson was unpleasant, but I am a good student.

Did you ever face anything like that?