No Ex-wives, Please

Loud title, isn’t it? Now, when I attached your attention, I will bring you down by saying that it is not that dramatic as it sounds. Yet, this is probably the most personal topic ever to write about. For me, to talk about private life is totally forbidden. Only few people know whom I dated and what type of men I prefer.

I always got well with men, who are 10 years older. They are smarter and wiser, they know themselves well, and they know what they want from life. Additionally, there is a cultural aspect in that. For me, a man should be superior in status, finances, and of course smartness than I am. These are my personal preferences, and they are not the subject for judgements. In the end, we all have the right to choose what suits us.

Needless to say, there are downsides in everything. Usually, such men are devorced, which is totally fine. People meet, they fall in love, and they separate later on. Just a normal life turn. However, I can’t stand ex-wives, when they are mentioned in the conversations, and of course big big ‘no’ for meeting them. Why? Probably, my own insecurities. If a man was married, it means that woman meant a lot for him, she was the one. For me, it means being in a non-stop invisible competition with my man’s past. I will always wonder if the ex will pop up and suggest to re-unite for the sake of the child. I wonder if my man compared me to his ex, of course without saying it to me. I wonder if his feelings for me will be as strong as they were for her. Complicated, isn’t it?